Welcome to Susan’s, Jenny.
There’s a lot of good information and good people here. Each of our stories is unique but we have a lot in common. Settle in, pull up a keyboard, and explore.
Be sure to look under the Announcements heading. There you will find the rules we live by in this little world of ours: “Site Terms of Service and Rules to Live By”, “Standard Terms and Definitions”, and “Post Ranks”. Look through the other stuff there, too, like “Age and the Forums”.
Don’t worry about your age. I started transition at 65. And don’t worry about your height, especially in Norway.
The others are right – it is about attitude and presentation. Since you are delayed in starting hormones, you will have time to observe natural women.
I found as a man I walked straight with little body movement and my arms swinging at my sides. As a woman I tend to walk with sort of a small swivel in the middle of my back, my pelvis thrust slightly forward, and my elbows tucked but my forearms out. As a man, the backs of my hands would face forward; as a woman they face out.
Animation is different, too. As a man I would show little facial movement or hand movement; as a woman I am much more lively. But look around. Some of this depends on where you live.
And as Spacial said, there is no safe way to get hormones without a prescription.
And one more piece of advice, if you don’t mind: Your therapist is not there to block you. Your therapist is there to help you discover how to become whole. If your therapist is not there for that, you need to find another.
Good luck, Jenny. And look around Susan’s. There’s lots of information here.